I do remember the times we had together. I remember the things we did as a family. They were important to me whether or not I showed it at the time. I think you never really appreciate what you have till its gone. And in the time I have spent away from you in Georgia, I have relised that I want those things back. Its also given me time to think about things more. And to understand that it those things I miss. Time to go fishing, and hey with me like this, maybe even mowing your lawn will seem more exciting to me now then it did when I was 15. I think at that age I focused more on me then anything else. I did not relise how important something like boating on the lake, and fishing late at night could be to a family.

I just thought that you deserved some words for what you have done as well. You came into a family that was dealing with some big issues. But you did a very good job of pulling it all together. I know you and I have had our times where it seemed we would never get along. I apoligize for all that. I thank you for sticking around through all the tough times. I am very glad that you and my father became married. He needed you and so did we. And even though I know that noone could ever replace my mother in flesh, you were the one who was closest to the defination that follows the word, "Mother." I love you Joan. And just wanted to find a way to say Thank-you for being in my life. I hope you and I can be closer when I make the move back to Maine. It would mean a lot to do things with you.